In my last post I mentioned that my only competition is the ‘me’ that God created me to be. Now here’s the issue – in order to get to my best self, I must go to work. This is where I fall short. I’m lazy. I’m pretty confident in what I need to do but I struggle in actually doing it. Well… that’s not entirely true. My problem is maintaining and sustaining. I get excited about the possibilities of a better me. This excitement is enough to fuel my efforts for a couple of weeks, then IT happens – lack of motivation and laziness.
Every time I’ve made a true effort to make a positive change, I’ve had favorable results. So, why is it so difficult for me to stay motivated? I’m really frustrated with my lack of ability to maintain positive changes until it becomes business as usual. What is my problem?!
I know that change is a process and it can be challenging. What’s crazy is that you would think my level of excitement would increase or at least stay the same because of the good results I achieve. But it hasn’t. I’m tired of starting over. I want to learn how to press through. I want to learn how to stay in the game. It’s true insanity to continue to approach change the way I have. It’s just not working!
I am frustrated. I know that frustration is a trick of the enemy but I can’t give him credit for this. I recognize and understand this trick. The enemy is a one trick pony. This is all on me. It’s on me to keep meditating on Philippians 4:13 – I can do ALL things through Christ which strengthens me. This is one of my default scriptures. I know this scripture. So what’s the problem? As I type Matthew 17:21 (NAS) comes to my remembrance – “But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” Is this what HE is telling me to do?
HE’s spoken. Now what am I going to do?
FINAL WORD OF ENCOURAGEMENT – 1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
Obedience or sacrifice? The choice is mine.
Be Blessed. Be Encouraged
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